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It is happening again, I am on my bed partially paralysed, gasping for air. It feels like I have cramps in my heart, like why does my chest feel so fucking heavy man. It’s been a while since this happened, l hope to God, I am not entering that dark cave again. The last time it happened, I had to play Lucid on repeat. Asa was my knight in shining armour, she literally had to drag me out of that dark cave.
I am so scared, I don’t know who will help me out this time.
I decide to open my journal, and pour all my pain into it. Whew! I feel a lot better. I know the pain will always find its way to creep back in, because I miss her so much, but it’s fine I will be ready whenever it happens.

It is normal for people who have had an emotional break-down at some point in their lives to have a relapse, to get back into that hell, that they barely managed to crawl out from. It may feel like you have taken five steps forward and twenty steps  backwards, but its okay to relapse, it’s all part of the healing process. Not everyone has the luxury of having a smooth recovery, some of us have a very crooked path to recovery. I want you all to know that we will get to the oasis of stability.

Bella Ciao!!!